January 22, 2012

... It feels good.

From Flickr. Courtesy Meghannash.

The faces that you make,
makes me feel good.
And when a smile comes on that very face,
it feels good.

When you forget something in between,
it feels good.
And then you remind me the same thing,
it feels good.

When there is something to do, that you can't,
it feels good.
Because making you understand,
is what feels good.

When you go bury yourself in studies,
it feels good.
And when the same studies puts you to sleep,
it feels good.

When you make me stop as I depart,
it feels good.
And when you stop while getting apart,
it feels good.

I don't like it 
when you say sorry to me,
but the way you sorry,
really feels good.

When you come in thoughts while going to sleep,
it feels good.
And when the heart reminds you first thing in morning,
it feels good.

Red, Black, Blue, Voilet,
Who cares?
Whatever you wear, on you
Everything looks good.

I don't like it 
when someone else talks to you
But when you talk to someone,
they also start to feel good.

Thought many times, to sit near and talk,
couldn't gather the courage to do so,
But seeing you even from far off,
feels good too.

When you look at me even once,
it feels good.
And when I keep smiling on those looks,
it feels goood.

Yes, it feels good.
But it's scary too.
The increasing anxiety drowns,
And pain inside continuously growls.

In few days you won't be near,
would have far gone from here.
Your memories will all I be left with,
And the things that feel good now
Will make me cry, forever.

... तो अच्छा लगता है.

[Translated version here]

जब तुम मुंह बनाती हो,
तो अच्छा लगता है.
जब तुम मुस्कुराती हो,
तो अच्छा लगता है.

जब तुम खुद भूल जाती हो
तो अच्छा लगता है.
और फिर मुझे याद कराती हो
तो अच्छा लगता है.
Courtesy Demi-Brooke

जब तुम समझ नहीं पाती हो ,
तो अच्छा लगता है.
क्योंकि तुम्हें समझाना भी
तो अच्छा लगता है.

जब पढ़ने में दिल लगाती हो ,
तो अच्छा लगता है.
और कभी पढ़ते पढ़ते योंही सो जाती हो ,
तो अच्छा लगता है.

जब जाते हुए रोक लेती हो ,
तो अच्छा लगता है.
और जब खुद जाते रुक जाती हो ,
तो अच्छा लगता है.

तुम्हारा सॉरी कहना तो नहीं ,
मगर जब तुम सॉरी कहती हो ,
तो अच्छा लगता है.

जब सोते वक्त तुम्हारा ख्याल आता है
तो अच्छा लगता है.
और जब उठते ही दिल तुम्हारी याद दिलाता है
तो अच्छा लगता है.

लाल, कला, नीला, बैंगनी,
किसे परवाह.
कुछ भी पहनो, तुम पर सब कुछ ही
तो अच्छा लगता है.

मेरे सिवा कोई और तुमसे बात करे ,
मुझे पसंद नहीं.
लेकिन तुम जिस किसी से बात करती हो ,
तो, वो भी अच्छा लगता है.

कई बार कोशिश की पास बैठूं ,
लेकिन हिम्मत ही ना कर पाया.
तो तुम्हें दूर से देख भी लूं ,
तो अच्छा लगता है.

जब एक नजर देख भी लेती हो ,
तो अच्छा लगता है.
और जब उन्ही नज़रों को याद कर दिन भर खिलखिलाता हूँ ,
तो अच्छा लगता है.

अच्छा तो लगता है,
पर डर भी लगता है.
बेचैनी होती है ,
और दर्द बढ़ जाता है .

कुछ दिनों में तुम नहीं होगी पास ,
कहीं दूर चली जाओगी .
तुम तो ना रहोगी ,
बस तुम्हारीं यादें रह जायेंगीं.
और जो बातें आज अच्छी लगती हैं ,
कल वही बातें रुलायेंगी.

January 20, 2012

I Will Listen.

Taken from Flickr under CC license
The next time you talk,
I will listen.
Not just from ears,
But from the heart.
And process it.
Not just from the mind,
But from the soul.

Till the time you keep talking...
I will control the disturbance outside,
and shut down the turbulence inside.
That impeding noise of hatred,
Those heart-wrenching memories of failures,
Will all be gone! 
...till the time you keep talking.

When you will speak, 
There will be only you in the moment,
And no one else will be allowed to enter it.
All other works will cease to exist,
Like they were never there to begin with.

You will be the only person in the universe
Who will matter in those precious seconds.
On you will I focus,
In you will I search my zen.

Your words will become the lyrics,
Your voice will be music to my ears,
And so your little talk will become a song,
A song worth listening for years.

The modulation in your speech,
The glow in your eyes,
Those waving hands,
And that smiling face,
I will absorb them in my core,
And imprint them in my memory, forever.

For a change, I will concentrate on you,
And not on me, myself, my pride,
For a change, I will hear what You want to say,
And not what I want to hear.

And there will be nothing artificial,
My attempts will not be fake,
Because I will listen, because I want to listen,
You will not have to make any efforts,
To see my eagerness, the excitement, the intent,

And also that little apology,
For the last time, I didn't pay attention.
And also the gratitude,
For letting me listen to you, again.

The next time you talk,
I promise you this,
With all the honesty in my heart,
I. Will. Listen...

January 16, 2012

My list of Things/People to kill before I die... this Doomsday

Disclaimer: I am NOT actually going to kill any of them. So if they die tomorrow, I should not be held responsible.

  • Saas Bahu soaps: Seriously, if I kill them, then that would be the happiest day of my life (nevermind the last). They have given me hundreds of sleepless nights, extreme anxiety, taken my anger to new levels and made me want to crash & burn the stupid TV so many times. It's time you die, you whiny bitches X(

  • Indian Cricket Team: With whatever that is happening Down Under, I wish the dooms day comes today only, the whole Indian Cricket Team dies and we get to see a brand new Indian Cricket Team... with the same players of course, just with 6 pack abs! I am convinced, missing 6-packs are the reason why Indian team is not performing.

  •  Rafael Nadal: ... also Novak Djokovic and Andy Murray. I am sure that way at least one of my 12 wishes for 2012 will come true :)

  • XP: He, I mean; it has become so old and path3tic, I just fail to understand why he.. err.. it is still liked by people. I have already said him- no- it good bye a long time ago. It's time the world says so as well. And I hope he it gets a painful end!

Taken from Flickr under CC license.
Picture representative of what
 I face sometimes :/

  • Stray dogs in my neighbourhood: I just fail to understand where do they keep coming from? It's like every time I go out for a walk, I find a new dog sitting around saying "Hey bro, What up!". And yesterday's black one was like "Your derriere is written all over my teeth, cutie!".

  • Anti-corruption crusaders: Life was so easy in the pre-2011 era. It was so much fun to pay some extra cash and the work used to get done in no time. But ever since, these people came, they have almost taken away the fun. And their propaganda of "Hum Bharat se Bhrashtaachar ka vinaash kar denge". Abe, poore Bharat ka vinaash nahin ho jaayega?

  • Rakhi Sawant: Actually, I wanted to write Dolly Bindra, but I am too scared of her.

  • The guy who made Mayan calendar: Dude you were awesome you predicted when the world is going to die, before you died yourself. But what the shit is this?

  • Justin Baby: I know it will kill lakhs of teenage girls as well, but then they are stupid enough anyway, to like him. Plus, they are not age suitable for my girl friend dream, anymore, so I don't care!

  • FB: So, that I can Actually talk to my friends in my last time, instead of writing a stupid FB status: "Friends, this is my last post on FB. Please don't like it."

  • People who give admissions in nursery schools: Those who think that getting admissions into Engineering/Medical colleges is difficult, should try taking admission into a good Nursery school.

  • Supporters of "Honour" killings: But they should get killed with full honours, of course.
That guy could so have been me :-/

  • Bloody Pitt: Me and Angelina were so meant for each other, if only he hadn't come in between X( I had even thought of our nick name: "Ravangelina"! Although "Jolie Singh" wasn't bad either!

  • Those who don't believe they will die this Dooms day: That way I would be able to say, "Told ya!".

January 15, 2012

I smile.

I smile.
Because it takes away all the sadness at that very moment.

I smile.
Because it makes me feel happy, instantly.

I smile.
Because it's essential for me, just like breathing.

I smile.
Because smiling is an art
 and I want to perfect it.

I smile.
Just to keep seeing, if I can still smile.

I smile.
Because it's a habit, it's automatic.

I smile.
Because not smiling sucks.

I smile.
Because I like to smile.

I smile.
Because there is a huge scarcity of smiles in this world.

I smile.
Because I have the best smile in the world, and I know it!

I smile.
Because a lot of others' smile depends on it.

I smile.
Because it never hurts.

I smile.
Because they asked me to do so.
And I am just keeping my promise.

I smile.
I just don't know the exact reason.

I smile.
Whenever I remember her.

I smile.
That's how I defeat my enemies.

I smile.
While talking or walking.
While eating or drinking.
While doing anything and everything.

I smile.
When I wake up, and when I go to sleep.
And a lot many times in between.

I smile.
Because I just don't know how NOT to smile.

I smile.
Because I believe in miracles a genuine smile can perform.

I smile.
Because smiling is my favorite.

I smile.
Because everyone just love to see me smile.

I smile.
...Today because I don't know if I would be there to smile tomorrow.

I smile.
Because it's precious, but still no one can steal it from me.

I smile.
Because world walks with me when I smile.
And when I frown,
they leave me alone.

I smile.
Because I belong to those rare species who can.

I smile.
Because I want to lessen the hatred in this world. 

I smile.
Because God made life to be lived this way only.

I smile.
Because it is a must to get ahead in career ...and in life.

I smile.
Because it's safe and has no side effects.

I smile.
But I won't tell why.
Because smiling is something I don't need to justify.

I smile.
In the hope that she will find me, one day. And I want to be found smiling.

I smile.
Because it's one thing I don't need a reason to do.

I smile.
Because sometimes, laughing is politically incorrect.

I smile.
Because I don't want to regret not smiling later on.

I smile.
Because it makes me appear approachable.

I smile.
Because I like baffling people with my smile.

I smile.
Because there is no better exercise for my face.

I smile.
Because it's infectious.

I smile.
Because I want to remind those who have forgotten to smile.

I smile.
Because it doesn't cost me anything.

I smile.
Because it makes everyone's day.

I smile.
Because it's the best make up I can ever have.

I smile.
Because it shields the pain inside.

I smile.
But it's not my fault, it makes me look cute. 

I smile.
Because I have missed a lot of opportunities to do so before.
But I am not missing any more.

I smile.

... Dedicated to (and courtesy) my new found friends. Keep smiling :)